In NYC Again

And I miss my honey and my baby girls! And that's all I've got for right now.

Sinking Submarine

That is how I am feeling today. That is a CRAZY dream I had last night - that I was in a sinking submarine! Normally I don't remember my dreams. When I do, it is typically because I am over-come with stress. In my dream last night, my Man and I were out to dinner to celebrate our anniversary (which is in 2 days!) We were at a restaurant on the waterfront. Note - I DON'T like the waterfront except from a shallow beach. Then suddenly the restaurant turned into a ship. Then as we received our drinks, the ship turned into a submarine and started to sink. We couldn't get out of our seats. We were stuck in them. Everyone was screaming for air to breathe. Then just as we went under, air masks came down (like in an airplane) and we could breathe again while under the water. Then I woke up. And told Pete I wasn't ready to move to NYC yet.

I know this is the enemy's attack. This is EXACTLY what he wants me to do. But I'm having a hard time finding the strength the fight it. I fasted yesterday (which I had kind of slacked off for awhile doing) and prayed fervently all day. I desperately need wisdom and strength that only the Lord can give to me right now. I had 4 conversations yesterday with people that are having a really hard time right now. I know that is the enemy too. We're all just wanting to give up. We've let our guard down and now it's tough getting back into the battle...

Apt. #1

After spending 3 days (about 4 - 5 hours each day) with a broker, we've decided we don't want to pursue either of the 2 apartments that we thought we were deciding between. I'm glad we had enough sense to take the time to fly home and process it before putting in an application (which is about $100 - $200) per apartment. But just for fun I thought I'd post pictures of the 2 that we narrowed it down to. We'd move into either one of them if they were NO FEE but both have a fee and both have condo fees in addition to that. With the economy the way it is right now, I'm sure we can find something without a fee and without condo fees on top of that.

This is what is considered a 2 bedroom loft. However, there are not any walls separating the two bedrooms upstairs - only the staircase. This one is in Gramercy Park at 24th & Second. The kitchen was tiny. BUT it had LOTS of closet space. And the best thing was the private 12 x 12 patio and the AWESOME rooftop deck.

The neighborhood school was OK and George said she'd be OK with sending her son there. I think I'd be OK sending the girls there if we feel that is what we need to do next year. We are looking at what school district we are in because we are hopeful that we won't have to move next year and in case the girls end up going to school so that I can go back to work.

Trip to NYC

So we are home after 3 full grueling days in the Big Apple. This trip had an entirely different feeling than the previous 2. I suppose it was because we were actually looking at schools and apartments to actually move into. It's different when you visit. It's different when you visit (like we did in January - we knew we were going but didn't know the time line) even if you know you are moving there eventually. When the time finally comes to find the place to move to - and try to find it in just a few short days - it is EXHAUSTING! I didn't get to spend any quiet time alone with the Lord and I'm sure that didn't help. I was drained more and more each day that we were there. So, no update. My Man still doesn't have a job and we still don't have an apartment.

I am going back at the end of the month to scout out apartments without my Man but with George. She's a trip! LOVE HER! She was with us this last trip doing the same scouting as we were. I don't want to leave the girls again but Pete will be home with them for most of that time so I feel a bit better about going. I just really don't like leaving them for more than a day. Ever. This trip to NYC was only my 4th time in K#1 entire life (a whole 8 years) that I left them for more than a day. I know it's good for them and me but it's hard. Pete and I have a pretty good idea of where we feel we need to live, oddly enough, not where we had thought, and we have a pretty good idea of what we are looking for in an apartment. He trust me enough to find it on my own and know that he'll be happy with it. I'll take video and pictures but still he'll be leaving the final decision up to me. And that means praying that I find something that week so we can move 2 days after I return home.

And I thought life couldn't get any crazier!